I’ve recently realised that I have an extremely active, extremely negative monkey mind. It starts THE VERY SECOND I gain consciousness in the mornings before I barely even realise what’s happening!
The first thing I do upon waking, like most people, is recollect what I am doing that day and what are the most significant things I am doing that week.
And like most people, I am not doing a job I especially like, so what happens next is a rush of negative emotions and thoughts:
“Oh NO I have to go back there today 😢
This isn’t what I wanted to be doing with my life,
but I can’t figure out an alternative career.
I am a failure.
I feel exhausted and ill.
I feel weak.
I feel so sad.
There’s something wrong with me.
I don’t want to be here”
Before I’ve even realised quite what’s going on, I feel – to put it bluntly – like shit.
I then think “well I should meditate or recite a positive affirmation to raise my vibration” but by this point I feel so anxious and depressed that I can’t muster up the energy; and more interestingly, I don’t WANT to feel better because now I feel annoyed with myself. I don’t DESERVE to feel good about myself.
So! The last few days I have made myself change things up.
I have forced myself to recite an affirmation. Even if I really don’t want to, even if I really don’t believe it, I commit to trying.
I breathe deeply, and I say:
“I am healthy.
I am happy.
I am prosperous”.
And guys, honestly, I DO feel a shift. I do feel lighter.
I have found the last few days easier to deal with, and I even came up with my new project #FindingMySpark which I launched that very same day!
I wanted to share this because if it helps me then it could really make a difference for you too!
Notice your self-talk first thing upon waking.
Choose an affirmation which resonates with you and your particular worries or negative self-beliefs.
Repeat it silently to yourself, as many times as you like.
Your ‘ego’ / monkey mind will tell you not to bother, you aren’t worthy or you don’t have the energy. Tell yourself this: “I will try it anyway, because you never know”.
If nothing happens the first, second, third morning, please keep trying. Everyone’s journey moves at a different pace.
If you can readjust your energy even just a little bit, you are giving yourself a much better chance of getting through the day in a less mentally and emotionally damaging way.
And if you DO like my affirmation then I created this little pic for you to save and share 🙏